life

regrectful...
I hurt my friends so much,
Just because i was so jealous.
I only cared abt myself....
Nw i knew y nth went my way...

Horrible

Well My Emotions were Haywire during the Whole Trip,
And there was only 1 Word to link it Together...
JEALOUSY
(I think i spelt wrong)
I just keep on telling Myself move On,
But...
I am still held back...
I can't Move On,
When i saw YanYu just now...
I was so...
Jealous
I spoilt my Malaysia trip like that...
No matter what She said,
I am no Good in Moving ON...
Concentrate on My Studies,
Ya rite...
I started studing thanks to her,
She was MY motivation to keep studing.
And now without it,
I dun know My grades might drop..
We started going to the Libaray because I LOVE HER,
And i still do...
I can't move ON not yet...
I AM SORRY...
I just can't do it....
I think i Cried on the Bus,
I just kept thinking and thinking...
My minds is in a Mess,
I know its MY OWN fault...
And i only have 1 Reader but,
I just need to say it out...
I am Pretty Useless,
Maybe i should't have gone to malaysia at all.
I wont have brought myself pain...
Maybe it was better if i didn't find out,
And i will still be un my Wonderland...
MAYBE all i had was a Chance,
I dun know and i dun think i will ever know...
All my Emotions are in this 1 Post...
So how did you feel my Reader...

**I still dun trust CY in keeping Sercets,
So dun inviet Him
(He dosn't even know i had this Blog)

Feeling:Useless

Ok felt better =]

I was Worried that i can't make up with YuLin,
But in the End i worried for nothing =P
I felt very good even though,
I now know how she felt about me.
Today was also not so bad,
I made up with her.
And got Buddy System with Her =]
Dun get the wrong idea,
I just want to look out for her!
And its nothing else =X

I am Fine

Rejected by YuLin but,
Its not that Bad.
I always wanted a Sister =]
I feel totally Fine,
With that i can focus on other stuff.
At least i didn't lose to BengHoe or YanYu =]
I always wanted to know how she felt about me,
Now i know.
And it felt great to find out =]
I will try again,
When...
I dun know =P
I wont give up after all there is more than 1 Girl

Feeling: Fine, At least i finally know how she felt

One more time

Today went to the Libaray to study.
Study till the specific time,
Than went out to eat Lunch.
Than i eat finish wash hand that time,
Yulin was talking to the other 2.
What they said caught my Attention,
I think they are talking about me.
But if i am not suppose to know,
Than i dun wish to find out =]
Unlike last time,
When she hardly know me..
Now she know me better liao,
So i will try.
If it fails than i dun think,
Its worth chasing again...
Only when i heard she say NO will i give up =]
So i need to jiayou and Buck up =]

Feeling: Kinda Happy to go Libaray =]

YuLin did Well for Chem =D

Today was ok lor...
Since LiPing wanted to ask BaoYi to ask YuLin,
About what she Feels about.
I though it over than decided i dun think,
I can take it if i dun find the Answer out Myself.
So i will wait and Confess when i feel thats its ok =]
I guess if i find out myself,
Even if its a No i still feel at ease...
I was happy when i saw that YuLin passed,
I was more happy than what i got for My Chemistry =P
Which was at 13/20!!( Top in class)
(Only about 10People passed )
Now i wondering weather to inveit people to Read,
I guess see who ask ba.
Than i decide want inviet anot.
I want to live happy even for awhile =]

Feeling: OverJoyed(As YuLin passed =D)

My Life what will happen

My Life this 24Hrs is...
I want to tell Cher Yee Sorry but...
I am worried he doesn't Listen...
And than while walking,
Ran into Jaccqulien.
Not once but twice!
I dun want her to make a Misunderstanding...
And Jac will easily tell YuLin...
My Life is not worth livng without her,
ChongKit say i dun get Jealous...
But i do!!
When ever see her talking to another Boy,
I get so jealous...
I really want to tell her I LOVE HER!!
I really want to,
But something always happen...
And i am Afraid if she were to say NO,
I still want to be Friends with her.
But what will happen,
I think now is not the Time But...
I want to be Together with her.
For as long as possible
Her Happiness fuels me On...
And last time i said,
If she said no i will Give Up...

Feeling: Emotional Unstable

Intro

Well this is a Blog i made to post,
How i truly feel.
I doubt i will inveit people to read it.
So this Blogged is made to feel like,
Something for me to let everything out with.i