Horrible

Well My Emotions were Haywire during the Whole Trip,
And there was only 1 Word to link it Together...
JEALOUSY
(I think i spelt wrong)
I just keep on telling Myself move On,
But...
I am still held back...
I can't Move On,
When i saw YanYu just now...
I was so...
Jealous
I spoilt my Malaysia trip like that...
No matter what She said,
I am no Good in Moving ON...
Concentrate on My Studies,
Ya rite...
I started studing thanks to her,
She was MY motivation to keep studing.
And now without it,
I dun know My grades might drop..
We started going to the Libaray because I LOVE HER,
And i still do...
I can't move ON not yet...
I AM SORRY...
I just can't do it....
I think i Cried on the Bus,
I just kept thinking and thinking...
My minds is in a Mess,
I know its MY OWN fault...
And i only have 1 Reader but,
I just need to say it out...
I am Pretty Useless,
Maybe i should't have gone to malaysia at all.
I wont have brought myself pain...
Maybe it was better if i didn't find out,
And i will still be un my Wonderland...
MAYBE all i had was a Chance,
I dun know and i dun think i will ever know...
All my Emotions are in this 1 Post...
So how did you feel my Reader...

**I still dun trust CY in keeping Sercets,
So dun inviet Him
(He dosn't even know i had this Blog)

Feeling:Useless